Tuesday 8 July, 2008

Weight pain

Ten years back, I weighed 42kgs. Five years back I was 54kgs. Today I am 69kgs. For those who have known me all these years, I am sure it is a shocker.... Trust me, the growing waistband, fuller face and hips have left me quite surprised as well... I started with denial, moved to arrogance, irritability, downright heartache and finally resignation.... When I meet my friends from school or college, they all, usually as politely as possible, mention that I have gained a lot of weight... And I do the head bob routine in answer...

Does it bother me that I no longer fit into my favourite clothes? Does it bother me to see other people around me looking trim and fit, sporting trendy attires while I struggle with my ever expanding tummy? Honestly, it still does. But perhaps not as much as it used to be... And this is huge... Why? Well, it happens to be the essence of my weight loss regime...

I have read a thousand articles, sat through talk shows on TV, spoken to friends, doctors, and god knows who else. Of course, each one had their own take on the topic of weight loss... I was recommended diets, strict exercise routines, pills, and a whole gamete of advice as to "what really works"....

I followed some, chucked the others, but with minimal success. I often ended up feeling extremely unhappy because I would have failed to follow the diet (rice, potatoes and sweets happen to be staple diet). It was only after I got married that my husband pointed out that I have started obsessing about losing weight, and growing progressively unhappy in life. So this is what he had to offer: Don't be hyper about your weight. You should be careful about being fit, thats all.... Don't stop yourself from eating things you like.... And there is absolutely no need to spend boring hours in a gym, feeling terrible about yourself. We all need physical exercise... So do you like doing... Go play a game you like once a week... or swim... or walk.... Don't be too hard on yourself...

And guess what...That actually worked :) I have been swimming, and I feel good... The flabs are still there, but I don't care... I can see I am getting fitter.... I do a lot more laps in the pool now... And I tire less frequently... I feel good about myself... And I have actually started to lose weight!!!!

So here's the bottom line... All those who are getting worked up about weight loss or gain... Just drop it... Obsess about being healthy, not slimmer or fuller.... Eat what you like, do what you like... But just feel happy... Because at the end of the day, that is all that matters... Your body is not for experimentation.... Your body is for you to enjoy... So be good to it darlings...