Mumbai has come in my blog a number of times... I have written about my feelings and experiences here, and god knows how much I love the city... How I consider Mumbai to be my second home... The city which gave me my identity, my friends, my husband and the four most wonderful years of my life.

Then yesterday morning I woke up with a call from a friend... Someone who knew about my ties with the city... She asked me to look... And I saw... I saw a bunch of men mutilating my city... Killing my people... burning my buildings... I watched and watched in horror as flames blew out of the Taj.... Grenades exploding in Oberoi and gunshots pierced through VT, Leopold, Colaba... I sat helpless trying to understand what is going on...

Since then we all have been waiting for this nightmare to end... And as the time passed by, we came across horror stories shared by friends and families who lost a part of them, who are being held hostage for the last 35 hours...

I have been crying... I cant explain the pain I feel right now... Yes I was lucky that my friends having dinner at Colaba escaped, my cousin at VT left just in time.... My other family and friends never went to south bombay on wednesday. But so many others were not so lucky. My city was not so lucky. And I want to know why... Yesterday I saw a man saying he wants to wait and watch the deadbodies of the terrorists coming out of Taj... Because they have dared to touch Mumbai... And I feel the same way. I heard one of the men have been captured. All I could think was that if I had a gun I would have blown his head off right there...

I dont want to know who these people were. I dont want to know where they came from and what is it that they wanted out of this. All I want to know is that what is it that drove these men to walk in on innocent people and shoot at them. If this was a religious retaliation, they could not have avoided killing their own men. If it was for revenge, who are they seeking it from? I keep hearing all this was well planned... Ofcourse it was... Otherwise how could they kill four top police officers in a matter of one night? They knew who their target was. They knew who kill and where to kill. And they did...

They are saying this is the worst terrorist attack India has seen. It was the worst one for America on 9/11. It would be worst for some other country some other day... And I want to know for how long... If you really want to rule the world, why not drop a few nuclear bombs on us? Finish us all and then you can rule... That ways you will save a lot of time... Why do you keep coming into my home and hurting us one by one? How long do you think the fear factor will work?