Too many thoughts in my head... Too many questions, too many comments, too many options... Life has suddenly become one too many...

I started working again... Like real work.... Not the 'home-based I dont have much to do' kind of work... Work that actually keeps me occupied for most part of the day... Which always means interactions with a bunch of other individuals... People who behave as parts of an organism popularly known as 'office politics'. And its time for me to figure out where I stand... And then express the same... Well honestly I care a damn... I am still upset about Mumbai... I am still angry and disgusted and so on... I have stopped watching news channels, because I am tired of the teary eyed Burkha Dutt showing us the curtain which acted as the make-shift ladder for the people to escape... I am tired of foriegners saying how they still think this country is safe and beautiful... Ofcourse it is... I dont need to be told that... I am not going anywhere, trust me...

I have been getting protest mails, sms-es pointing out the absence of Raj Thackrey, and reading many a blog of people who were actually there somewhere while this fiasco happened... Actually I don't even have a 'word' to describe what happened between 25th and 27th November... Its all still a blur...A real bad dream which I wish was not true... Anyways, the point is, that people have taken offence this time... Real offence... I don't know why it took all these years, but the people pf Mumbai have finally risen with the voice that they dont really believe in that 'spirit of Mumbai' bullshit... It was perhaps true during the riots, or the flood, or the number of blasts that scarred the city... But this time its different... I don't know if its the rare mix of the death of rich and poor alike that has created this havoc response... Or if its the random yet careful selection of locations, the shock of your own homes being ripped apart... The horror and finality... But people seem to have finally woken up...

Here's what I want to tell my fellow Mumbaikars... Please don't get up and portray 'resilience' or 'perseverance'. Hang the Mumbaikar spirit... Yes you should not be afraid... But you can mourn... And you can grieve... For this is that time when you let go of your controls... We all grieve with you...